After being in Fethiye for only a few weeks
this winter, I am back in Fethiye.
Whether it is sunny or rainy, there is always a special energy in this
special town. It is one of the places on
the planet that I feel more connected to life and to the Divine.
I have been using and teaching
various methods for about twelve years and writing about complementary
therapies and life in the past five or six years in Land of Lights. I am an engineer by training, however it is not
possible for me to imagine a life in which our intuitions and feelings are not
considered as important as our analytic mind.
Not anymore. We have tools other
than our mind or five senses, tools that we are not using fully, tools we are
not fully aware of. Our intuition is a
very important tool and we seem to use it better and better first of all by
listening to it, by respecting it and by taking it seriously.
It is easier to listen to our
intuition when it matches what our mind says.
Yet, how about when the mind and the intuition say different things?
About a week ago I received a
message from the veterinarian of my German shepherd dogs in İstanbul. She was suggesting that one of two female
dogs must be fixed, sterilized since she had been pregnant twice at a relatively
young age and our guards at our organic garden have not been able to protect
our dog Lady at the time that she was fertile.
Actually the vet had asked me to give an approval for this operation
this winter as well. For some reason it
had not felt right and I had said no. A
few days after I arrived in Fethiye, the veterinarian was asking for my
approval and confirmation for this operation again. She had sent the message that it was for the
good of the dog and they would pick her up from the garden and do everything
necessary and bring her back when she was totally healed. The message arrived at a time I was quite
busy with trainings and sessions. I read
the email sent by the vet to my secretary in İstanbul. Again it did not feel right. I knew that with
five other dogs in the garden, it was not easy for my staff to keep the dogs
apart during the fertile times of the females.
It could be done, but for some reason we have not been good at it. So when the message came, although I still
did not feel good about this operation, I found it difficult to say “no” since
I did not have any tangible reasons to say no.
It did not feel right, but I did not say no. I said yes.
I told my staff to take care of the details for the operation. I remember that I reminded my secretary to
make sure that we checked the state of our dog Lady often and to let me know
about how she was healing.
Two days later I received the news from
İstanbul. A long list of complications
had happened during Lady’s operation and they have not been able to save
her. Our young and healthy German
shepherd had died due a long list of reasons that the vet had written in a long
email. I was very sad, but not only for
the loss of this beautiful and gentle female dog, but more for not listening to
my very clear intuition. Please do not
get it wrong, I make almost all of my decisions with my hearts, my intuition’s
approval. That is my new way of living. Almost all of the time. But sometimes, sometimes, when there is an
expert involved in the decision, sometimes I make the mistake of not listening
to the voice that protected me hundreds of times over the years.
After I came back to Fethiye, I learned that I need
to go to the city of Elazığ in Eastern Turkey for a meeting for a couple of
days. I was being called for a very
important meeting for a project. I would
have to make very important decision that would have huge financial and legal
effects on the government and the community as well as me, my family and our
business. Learning about Lady before
this important trip was a very important message for me, a gift from Lady if I
may say. A very sad but an immensely important message for me.
Years ago I had decided to listen to my heart
and not to make decisions that do not feel right And I was doing this, this was
becoming my way of living However, Lady was telling me, showing me that I had
to make a much clearer choice. Was I
willing to live fully and completely what I believed in? Not 90 percent, not 99 percent, but was I
willing to listen to my intuition on a full hundred percent? Was I willing to say yes or no depending and
trusting on my intuition all of the time, and not back out when I cannot come
up with logical reasons?
I believe that in life there are things that we
can control and things that we cannot. Sometimes
it is hard to say which is which. Yet Lady’s message to me is very clear. It was clear from the first moment of the bad
news. ... “Please listen to your heart, please listen to your intuition. It has protected you. It protects what you love as well.” ... I
thank her. For coming into my life. For
the four babies that she has given us in the last years. Lady’s memory will always be precious for
me. May she be in peace and light. May her message be always clear in my mind...
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Affirmation
of the Week: From Louise L. Hay, “It is
safe to be me. I express who I am.”
Book
Recommendation: “Biology of Belief-İnancın Biyolojisi” by Dr. Bruce H. Lipton
